today i stole 2 eggs from my mother's house to cook in my grandmother's house (i live in my grandmother's house). i put both eggs on the side pocket of my backpack. then i went to the store to buy fish sauce, but the backpack side crashed into the corner of a store rack, crushing the eggs.
i dirtied the store floor at 7 am with eggs liquid. imagine how confused the storekeeper when they find out. they didn't even sell eggs.
i got panicked and just left immediately.
yesterday i went to AM's house and bought her a cake because she completed her undergraduate thesis exam.
(that's me on the background trying on her headphones)
then we had some talks, and apparently AM is somewhat an antinatalist like me. then she accidentally influenced her relative with antinatalism. her relative has a serious family-approved boyfriend, which means they'll probably get married and probably have children, but now she has antinatalism doubt which is good.
to be honest i personally don't want to have children. but if i end up with a husband who really really really want to have children, i wouldn't mind having children. i like kids, anyway. but i'm aware at this point of climate crisis and complex human 'consciousness', giving birth to a new human is unethical.
it's just like i don't mind stealing money from other people, but i don't do it because it's unethical.
but i'm also at this confusing state where i often make opinion about not believing in values, norm, and ethics, but in real life i believe in those things.
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