How Taylor Swift's Song Ended in Marriage and Maturity Matters.

7/1/2015

Im'm just laying down here, while evening starts changing it's face darker towards the night. My eyes have adjusted very well with dark room, with only laptop screen light revealing my grey face.

Sometimes I just wondering, why I write a lot about grey and blue as much as Taylor Swift write about rain and 2 AM. Blue and grey are my favorite colors. Not very feminime, I know. But I consider myself as a feminist, just to let you know. In the cool way. Like Emma Watson in her speech. Yes, that kind of 'greyish' feminism. Not the way Beyonce sings 'Run the World' (doesn't mean I don't like that song. That song is great, really.)

So why am I jumping from Taylor Swift to grey-blue to feminism?

I'm not sure. I'm just having a 'soul call' to write something. A weirdly specific sentences like Taylor Swift's song (I'm currently listening to 'You are in Love' from her 1998 Canada deluxe version).

Speaking about love, honestly, I barely know nothing about it if you're talking about romantic relationship experience. I've never dated anyone. It happened because of 3 reasons: 1. religious belief, 2. my mom wouldn't let it happened, and of course 3. I don't think I have found 'the one'. I don't think romantic relationship is an urgent matter now, that's why I'm not really trying. In fact, I'm not trying at all. When I said I want to get married by the age of 30, when I already laid up, most people say "What? Are you planning to die virgin?"

And I was like: what is wrong with them? What is wrong with getting married at 30's? People do that and they're doing fine.

As for now, learning and future plan excite me more than oppsite gender attraction. In the beginning of my freshman year, I liked romantic things, but now it's not as interesting as it was.

I don't know. Maybe my psychological status is upgrading to the maturity level. Maybe. Well, who knows? There are a lot to find out.